I felt led to blog today about a surprise that came to me this week.
I have been looking for a new position at my company and found out my manager denied a transfer for me. There were business reasons my manger had that "in my opinion" were just excuses that didn't really hold up as business reason in my point of view. This manager doesn't have my career development in any regard at all. Not being vengeful but I don't regard or respect him as a manager as he is very political and does not support his people.
I have been looking for 3 months now and so far nothing has come up and i have been thwarted at every turn.
So why am I surprised? I am surprised because my response in my heart and mind was very different than the response I would have had prior to walking with the lord.
Was I disappointed? Yes I sure was. I was a little angry also. But I felt very calm and the thought hit my mind very quickly after the news and that thought was "God is in control and he has a plan." He knows what is best and maybe just maybe I am supposed to stay where I am for the moment. I have had the great blessing of not feeling vengeful, overly angry, and i have been able to keep a positive attitude. This really surprised me. News that surly would have crushed my spirit in the past almost feels like a blessing as a witness to my faith.
Having faith in Gods control over my life gives me great peace and comfort. It also reminds me that When I am sad, feeling unwanted, disrespected, and not appreciated I can go to him and ask him for help and for him to give me wisdom.
And you know what? He does give me peace, and through his word and that still small voice he gives me direction and wisdom.
I can't and don't want to imagine a life without my lord. I will praise you in the storms of my life and I will call out to you.
My message to everyone who doesn't know Christ. He is patiently waiting for you and in him is hope.
